From that moment on, I would entertain the idea---every so often---of what I wanted to do with my life and whether or not I wanted to have a child. I talked to my husband about it, and we both agreed that although there was a certain aspect of it that perhaps, maybe, here or there appealed to us...there was a whole lot of drawback as well. We valued our freedom. We watched people around us and we took silent notes. Every so often, we would confer.
I think it's safe to say that I was ambivalent.