I can't really point out the moment when my mind was made up...I would like to, especially for those of you who are also "on the fence" and wondering how I chose...all I can say is that I made a decision and I am now almost nine months pregnant.
I'm quite sure I have made many people happy. I know for a fact that my parents and my in-laws are both over-the-moon with glee: they are finally getting the grandchild that they never, ever thought they would have. I am also quite sure I have disappointed some. The friends that are living a child-free existence, for example, who thought I would be with them until the bitter end. I had one friend make me promise that I would never try and talk her into doing this. I assured her that since I have lived on both sides of this issue, that I would never, ever do that to her. I respect her choice.
The pregnancy so far has been full of surprises: a relative lashing out at me because she didn't understand my decision, a friend who doesn't understand why I will not (and would never) be having a Baby Shower, another friend who is angry at me for not registering...a stranger who thought it would be nice to offer some totally unsolicited advice...another stranger who has become a dear friend and cheered me on in every way possible. God---who, let's face it, I haven't always understood throughout this entire process---has sent me amazing people along the journey: clients who cared, a babysitter way in advance that the entire neighborhood covets, friends who have allowed me to cry, be hormonal, laugh, and just be. New people; old people resurfacing, and of course, a little someone who I have yet to meet.