Friday, July 8, 2016

Upon Waking

I had that moment this morning; that few seconds when you wake up and think immediately of the day ahead, your mind not registering the day before quite yet, and then, just like crashing grief, my mind remembered the last few texts and tweets I sent before bed.
He's sleeping right next to me. Thank God. So sick of all this...
I got up to greet the day, and encountered this headline:    

Dallas sniper who gunned down 5 cops 'wanted to kill white people,' chief says

And here's the entire report as of right now: 

Keep praying, people. Stay Strong. Know that we are one Big Blue Family, and that good still triumphs over evil. 



  1. Hello, my fiance is an officer in Michigan. I'm currently in a different state. Can you point me to good resources of who I can talk to learn from about how to deal with current events while lifting up my officer. I love him and don't want to cause him any stress just because I'm worried for his safety. I'm so proud of him. I love his courage and for standing on that line for those he may never meet day in and day out. He is a hero like all the other officers who put on that uniform. I want to lift him up, support him, be strong for him, but I find my heart aching for him and the thought of someone out there trying to hurt any officer is frightening. Am I alone in this feeling? Does it ever get easier. Because I'm not a wife yet and won't be in the state I currently live, I don't know where to turn. I'm new at this. Praying for your loved ones. May the ALL return to us safely as we grieve with our sisters in Dallas.

  2. Hello, I too am a fiancé to a police officer in New York. I'm also trying to find resources because I feel exactly the way you do. My heart is breaking for these men and women and I am trying to stay strong for my loved one. You are not alone

    1. Jen, thanks for posting. It's good to hear what I'm experiencing others are as well. May you be strengthened just as I felt by your response and Stella's blog I happened to stumble upon. Blessings to our Beloved LEO's, Sonja

  3. Ladies: When I felt alone, I channeled all of my anxiety/concerns/emotions into my art; I began writing this Blog, I reached out on Social Media, and I even wrote an Off-Broadway Show called SCW...all in order to connect with like-minded people.
    I can tell you that many departments have clubs/groups that you can join in order to find support. The NYPD is so huge that I sort of decided to start my own...and here we are.
    The best advice I can give you is to not only find a good support system, but to get rid of people who don't understand your journey. Negative friends and even family members are certainly not what one needs, especially someone who is new to the LE Lifestyle. Trust and believe that God has you in the palm of His hand.
    Other things I do when it gets hard: exercise, listen to great music, (loud) and sometimes turn the media OFF. Feel free to join SCW on both Facebook and Twitter and good luck to you both.


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