For a long time nothing happened. I knew I should not have been surprised, but after trying to deliberately prevent pregnancy forever, it was hard to switch your mind to the opposite track.
Inside, I was curious and unsettled. Would this happen and how would I feel if it did? Could I live the rest of my life child-free and be happy? Could I have a child and still be happy? I wasn't sure either way, but kept trying to work it out, in therapy, in prayer, in my writing.
We went almost a full year and nothing happened. And then...something strange happened.